For all my life, I grew up thinking that things had to be a certain way. If a record (for those of you that remember vinyl records) was to be played at 33 1/3 RPMs, then that's what you're supposed to do. If a television or a computer was supposed to run a certain way, then that's it...no argument. You get the idea, right?
Unfortunately, I let this mentality bleed into what I expected from people; I held onto it and allowed it to become a part of my psyche. As a result, I became a perfectionist and didn't allow others to be who God made them to be. Also, I found myself getting stressed out and sick because things weren't "perfect" in my little fabricated world.
Then, recently, I had had enough. I went to God (which was what I should've done in the first place) and told him, "Alright, that's it. I give up. I'm done with trying to get people and things to fit into my warped perspective of perfection. If I want perfection, then I'm coming to you, because your ways are perfect, your word is perfect, YOU are perfect." Afterwards, peace came over my soul, and a new journey for me had begun--a journey full of mercy, grace and forgiveness. Not only has this journey begun, so has a new spiritual battle; however, I'm better equipped to win these battles when they come.
There's a car company that claims to have a "relentless pursuit of perfection". I'm sorry to disappoint it, but it will never obtain it. Let this serve as a nugget of wisdom for all of us. If we truly want perfection in our lives, then we MUST go to God! My faith and trust in him are stronger than they've ever been before this revelation; I'm moving forward.
May God be glorified through my entire life!